In Awe

I've always been independent and willful *huge grin* as my beloved is fond of reminding me.

When those around you see you as such, they tend to forget that sometimes you just need to be taken care of, held, or just reminded that you’re special. You tend to forget that too. Those moments are rejuvenating, and give you the opportunity to pick back up again. Why am I saying this? Well, read on.

I teach during the day. So one lovely afternoon in lecture I get a knock on my door. One of the personnel from the admin office was standing there, grinning a huge grin. He says that I have a message at the front desk. I ask him to bring it to me since I was in the middle of a very important part of lecture. He asks if I’m sure, and I reply yes.

So, he brings it to me…in a gift of a dozen red roses and a teddy bear. HTE had sent me flowers. Until that moment, I’d never realized how something like that would affect me. So, I barely held it together and I hadn’t read the note yet.

“You’re doing a great job, SSgt Mom. Love, HTE.”

I cried. And everyone went on break with huge grins. What a wonderful, loving thing.

So, to my love, thank you for lifting me up, and letting me be me.

And to the other independent and willful women and munkies in my life…sometimes it’s okay to let someone take care of you. It’s also okay to trust that they’ll be there to hold you up when you need that lift to get you back to yourself. Sometimes you just have to let it be.